Turning 22 got me thinking.
I feel like I have more control now, that my words and actions actually matter more than I thought, to the people around me. In a few months I'd have graduated and looking out for real jobs to pay bills and make a living. The thoughts of it give me cold feet. I get worn out so easily, can I really handle the working life? I dare not imagine. But I have to, soon enough.
Friends suggest that I take my time to think and maybe travel a little bit before embarking on something so permanent as working life. It sucks that I don't have the money to do that. I hardly get by with all the credit card, insurance and phone bills. It almost seem like I'll never make enough. And the thought scares me. I simply cannot settle for basic. I need something that really pays yet fulfilling at the same time.
Which direction do I go? Thoughts to haunt me for the rest of 2012 I'm sure.
So panic issues aside, I think I had a decent birthday. The boyfriend tried really hard, showering me with gifts as much as he can, hunted for the best Tiramisu cake in town, and even make a really cute card. That means a lot because he is just so bad at handicraft (WE, actually. Our scrapbook didn't go pass the cover page, which we kinda just splat our hand prints on it. Ha) So thank you for all the effort, I love everything!
I want to cover this post with pictures because I'm now a proud owner of a Canon S100. But its 3:58am and I really need to get some sleep. Going to slap on some Laneige Water Sleeping pack and knock out.
Next entry for sure, with pictures and all that stuff.
Good night for now.
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